Die..(part 2)..[The Note]

Dear all my friends and family,
Please don't cry.
Just let it be.
For all of you who actually cared,
I love you with all my heart.
But I couldn't handle not knowing.
And I don't know where to start.
I cut each and every night,
Because he didn't care.
All I wanted...
Was for him to be there.
He didn't have to love me,
I just needed him to be my friend.
But he wouldn't listen,
And then came the end.
I told him how I felt,
BUT AGAIN! he wouldn't listen.
So I gave up,
I couldn't handle the pain I was dealt.
I loved him uncontrollably,
And that was my mistake.
For each and every morning,
I didn't want to wake.
I never told anyone,
About this feeling inside.
Which was probably pretty stupid,
Not something someone should hide.
But I did it anyways,
and it got so bad.
I couldn't handle it on my own,
And I really wasn't glad.
I can imagine how you're feeling,
Probably pretty down.
But it was just me,
there's no need to frown.
Please believe me,
I wasn't that great.
For this must have been...
Must have been fate.
I love you all so much.
And I'm sorry I had to go...
If you're ever wondering how I felt,
Look at my old poem book.
It'll show you all my true emotions,
Go ahead, take a look.
You'll maybe then understand,
I wasn't who you thought I was.
And then again maybe you won't understand,
No one ever does.
I'm not sure if you will,
But hopefully you can.
This is my final goodbye,
And please remember,
Don't cry.

-p.s.
And to whoever finds me laying here,
I'm sorry it was you.
Somebody had to find me,
There was nothing I could do.
I had to leave this horrid place,
I couldn't wait for God...