Him/Her

Are we or are we not?
You seem to switch from had to got,

Ups and downs, loop-de-loops,
You've even got me jumping through hoops,

Close as ever then cold as ice,
Backward and forward in my life,

You've hid from me incessantly,
Yet I've told you my secrets honestly,

I've shown you my tears,
Now you breath life into my worst of fears,

I need to know cause it hurts to see,
You bouncing around from them to me,

Why do you make me feel like this?
Making me feel like I shouldn't exist,

I know I've been wrong, not perfect,
But always have I given you my respect,

Why do I not deserve others?
I lost yours then another's and another's,

Of you I can't seem to let go,
No matter what I still care for you so,

You've pulled and pushed and thrown me around,
But I've struggled through not making a sound,

I won't scream, I don't want to shout,
I just wish you both would stop messing me about!

*the first version I lost :( so this is the best i could do from memory... hope you like... if you could comment and vote it would mean a lot*