When I started
Feeling this way
I thought it was
Just going to be
For a few days
It was so easy
To just forget
About these feelings
And greet everyone
with a smile
I could get
Through a day
Without needing someone
I didn’t even
Let out a tear
I kept it all inside
But even though
I tried to ignore
That the feelings were
Still alive within me
And that they were
Slowly but surely killing me
Because they needed
To be heard
By more than this paper
A couple of months
Maybe years later
Who knows how long
These feelings have been there
Waiting for the right moment
To want to come out
It seems it has found the precise time
Because now I’m feeling
All these things that have been
Kept inside me
It’s not easy anymore
Everyday it hurts a little more
I can’t bare the pain
That is caused by faking
Another smile
Like I do every day
Just to keep others from knowing
That my fear is growing
That every day I’m more scared
Of what I may do
Because I don’t know
What I might do today
I just know
That it’s not as
Easy as it
Was yesterday
