lovely poem...sad though.
love you
sammi

First of all your poem was wonderful, I could read each word,like you were pleading for answers....it was very good, and second, the answer is so easy. When you accept Jesus as your Savior, which is done, by just talking to him like you do a friend, and tell him your a sinner (we all are) and that you want him to forgive you, and that you know he died on the cross for your sins, tell him you want him to come into your heart, and cleanse you, and that you want to go to heaven when you die.....its done, he forgives, he cleanses, and makes us new....the faith part of that is believing it....it is so easy, just believe it. A lot of people think their sin was to bad, or that they can't do this right now, because they still want to party, or hang out with friends, and they think they can't do all that if they are saved....Well its not true, once you become saved, after your little conversation with God, things just change for you, I've been a Christian since I was 17, I'm 44 now, believe me when I say I have made some big, HUGE, mistakes, but evrynight I talk to God, and tell him,I'm sorry, he forgives me still.
I'm sorry this is so long, and some kind of preaching, I'm certainly not qualified to tell you how to be a Chrsitian in a comment section, but i can say, loving God is so easy, because he first loved me.....please try to talk to him, you dont' hear a voice that says "hello welcome to my world", your heart just knows........I have put you on my prayer list, and big things are going to happen for you. Just trust in God.......thank you for sharing your beautiful work, you are very talented,use your talent to wrok for God, like this poem, and so many people will turn to him, thanks to you, and he will bless you.....thanks again, Love ya, Becky