So confused....

I feel so confused, so worried, so lost,
So upset, yet so happy, so calm, yet so tossed.
I want to be enlightened, but to stay in the dark,
Because I want this to work, to not hurt my heart.
After eight sad long months, it finally happens,
You say you were sorry, and I’m up in the heavens.

It’s something that I’ve wanted to hear for so long,
And now that it’s happened I wonder if I’m wrong
To get back with you, who hurt me so bad,
I wonder if it will happen again, I wonder if I’ll be sad.
I love being with you, it’s ever so pleasant,
Every little kiss just feels like a present…

You say that you don’t want anyone to know,
I want to know why you can’t let us grow,
I want to know why you are hesitating,
I want to know why you’re not contemplating
Telling anyone that now we are more,
Do you simply want me to just be your w*ore?