Inner Circle

I stand back to get a grip on reality
but what i see i don't like
there you all are
you him and her
its like you all have your little jokes
your inner circle
and I'm never apart of it
i try and try to get in
but I'm always denied
he is mine but yet
it feels like all i have is his kiss
i don't have his jokes
i don't have his smile
i don't have his mind
ever since you stepped into the picture
i feel like you two have a better bond then him and i
i play it off
like it doesn't bother me
but every time i see u guys
it kills me and i want to die
when i leave for work
i want to cry
knowing I'm not there yet again
knowing you are there yet again
knowing i will not be apart of the circle
so until i am accepted into your circle
i will sit here wondering
what it is about her that i don't possess