I Won't Die Here

I Won't Die Here

I dry my eyes each night.
This happens after every fight.
The pain will never seize.
Even when I'm on my knees.

Been beaten until I turn blue,
No one knows what I go through.
Why does he drink everyday?
I sometimes wish his life away.

He brings me so much pain,
I just want to slice my vein.
After all the bleedings done,
I'll wonder who would have won.

It would be me standing there,
Fighting off my greatest fear.
I won't give him anything to hold,
It's my life and I'm in control.

I see no reason to live,
my life is all I have to give.
I'm not ready to give it up.
Still have't reached the top.

Even with the pain I had,
My life never seemed so bad.
If good is all I can see,
A better life I would lead.

friends made it better for me,
So A better friend I will be.
I'm ready to open this door,
I won't be giving up anymore.

Everyone I love I made worry,
For that I am so very sorry.
I won't live my life a lie.
And I'm not ready to die.

*Dedicated to 'Pillow'
I shove you!*