A Final Goodbye

I love you so much it hurts
To see you everyday
All I want to do is hold you
Because I have so much to say

But every minute of my time
That I spend with you
I realize how fruitless this is
And there's nothing that I can do

You used to call me yours
But I pushed it all away
I'm sorry for being foolish
But what else can I say

And everynight I wonder
What we could have been
But now it's all but over
And I should have let you in

But I was scared of loving
And I didn't know what to do
So I lied instead because
I thought it would get me through

I've used so many tactics
To get you to admit
That you're still hiding something
But I'm such an idiot

You never really loved me
And you never will again
I got left with a broken heart
And it will never mend

So now that you have left me
And fallen for someone else
I pray to God you'll take me back
But I know that it won't help

There is nothing here between us
That you will ever see
And the things I wish with all my heart
Will never come to be

If you knew how much I cried just now
And all these tears for you
While I wore a smiley face
And teased you through and through

Because when I said goodbye
It's not for just tonight
I'm letting you go forever now
So I want to say this one last time

I love you with all my heart and soul
You are everything I want to be
I wish I could have told you sooner
But now there's nothing left of me