Nine days pass
And not one single cut
The feeling grows inside
The need, the want
The uncontrollable desire
To slide that blade across my skin
To watch the blood pour
To see everything go dim
To knock on deaths door
Sliding off the unbalanced rim
Fighting off those feelings
Trying not to give in
Hiding the blade where I can not find it
Your voice, making me cringe with dread
No, I can’t give in
The screams, hollow, haunting me
Crying, Yelling, Praying
But still I can’t give up
I can’t lose it to you
I can’t give up
