A war raging inside of me
The dread spreads like ice
No longer warm or helpful
Emotions changing faster with the roll of the dice
Your words of encouragement
Make me turn away
They make me cringe with dread
And want this to be my last day
I cling to my razors
Just like I cling to my fear
I hide in myself
And hold not one soul dear
I cry in my sleep
I cry when I dream
I cry when I smile and laugh
I cry while I scream
I can feel myself dying
Maybe it’s the best for me
If I can’t live for myself
Then I’ll find a way to be free
Oh well if I hurt you
You were killing me
But you don’t think
Nor see
You don’t see me crying
And you don’t understand
Oh you can pretend you do
You can hold out your hand
But just as quickly as you held it out
You simply will take it back in
