My feelings

If the music drums loud enough
It drenches out my feelings
My heart beats fast it feels so rough
Why is thinking becoming so tough.

When I'm drunk enough i just dance away
It blows away my feelings
Every thought slowly floats away
All the s**t of such a horrid day.

And some random guy comes up to me
I forget all of my feelings
I feel flattered at what i see
If people saw they wouldn't believe this is me.

Oh no I've done it all again
I have lost all my feeling
This faintness comes over me then
All these people stare, women, men
What is it that's happening to me
Why is it so hard? I cannot see
"She's just a drunk" they say
How have i ended up this way?