To my Mother,
To my Father,
You told me to control my anger,
To express.... the way I feel,
Well here I go...
The silence is what kills me,
Because you don't listen to,
I scream all night long,
and you hear nothing,
Because you don't ever see me,
I don't try to hide,
but you never see me crying,
And you don't see,
What you don't care...,
And I don't want to hide in the shadows no more,
I don't want my floor to be covered in blood no more,
I don't want to cry no more....
Why won't you listen?,
Do I have to scream this out for you to hear,
Please help me,
How can you not know,
I'm in pain.
I weep, I cry o god please help me,
I ask so many questions,
And all I get are riddles.
All you insult, all your curses...
Make me feel like I'm not a person,
I just want answers..
Is my future set.....?
Why won't you answer me....?
Why I'm I the way I am...?
Why do you act as if I'm not here?,
And when you give me the answers,
You say a riddle...,
And I know your not telling me everything....,
Your riddles are webs of secrets...
Please just stop with all the secrets,
Please don't treat me like a child,
Please just give me some answers,
I don't want to be locked in my head,
Trying to figure out the lies,
I don't want to kill myself,
I don't want to kill you,
But I do it... just you'll hear my screams,
I don't want my blood trailing the floor no more,
I don't want red tears.. to roll don my face,
I don't want to hold myself at night,
I just someone... to LISTEN!!!!
Don't try and pretend you don't know,
I've tried to work hard,
I've tries to be you,
I've everything you wanted me to do,
I'm going to be everything you want me to be,
But I won't stay forever,
Cause I know this will end,
Either in story,
Or in the papers,
I don't want to hurt myself..,
Then please stop me,
And answer me normally...
And not in riddles....,
Cause I know it...,
Your riddles are webs of lie and secrets...
(My mum and dad haven't really been listening to me lately so I wrote this poems, and by the way most of this is made up, my parents are totally nightmares... there horrors....)
