I lie in bed at night
grab my flashlight
turn it on
wait no someones coming
quick
hide it under my pillow
act like i am sleeping
are they gone
ya they are
grab my flashlight again
grab my scissors
a tear falls
what shall i do
y, y god?
y do i do this to myself?
i cut myself 1,2,3,4 times
no to many to count
the blood drips
shit
grab a wash cloth
cut my self 1,2,3,4 times
no still to many to count
even more blood drips
shit
another wash cloth needed
god y, y me, y do i do this?
is it my parents
is it my friends what makes me hate myself so much
i need to stop
but i can't
i need more
stop i have to stop
but i can't
what is stopping me from,
doing this, this tortures thing nothing
not my friends
not my parents
y, y me
they don't care
if they care then they would stop me
y god,
Y ME?
