Cold on the inside

Eyes so wide
skin so white
this was my choice
i chose this night.
i picked this room
i used that knife
I'm the one
that will take my life.
body still shaking
blood seeping through
lips once red
have now turned blue.
i stare at the ceiling
as it all fades
wounds still stinging
what a mess I've made.
parents don't worry
it's not what it seems
shame its not real
it's only a dream.