Losing myself

I'm drowning in my own sweet misery.
gasping for a chance to breath fresh air.
but while I'm waiting..
I'm losing myself In a thing they call life.

i cant see, i cant breath!
I'm dying slowly internally,
i cant scream, i cant pretend.
I'm choking on my bloody tears.
its not love.. its not pain.
ITS JUST LIFE!

lock me up.. and shut me down,
I'm gouging my eyes out so patiently...
so much hate, no more love..
people dying and killing everywhere
while I'm fading into nowhere...