What am I to say?
As you can see from the many times I've written,
All I seem to think about is you,
And the many time my lip I've bitten,
I'm confused right now,
I don't know where to turn,
I want to run to you and cry,
But I'm unable when it is with you I burn,
You're oblivious to the pain you cause me,
It's unfathomable that you would ever hurt me,
You love me right...
That's what I use to think you see,
I've learned though, I've seen your other side,
The man inside that cares less,
The person I've realised you tried to hide,
But now he's out and my worlds a mess,
You know what I don't get...
Is how you could change just like that,
How you could go from the man of my dreams,
And switch to the cat in the hat,
I am still head over heels for you,
I gave you my heart a long time ago,
And I don't want you to give it back,
I just want you to notice and know,
That the way you are isn't the same,
That although you think you're trying real hard,
You're barely making a dent,
And one day you might play your final card,
I can't talk to you anymore,
At least not about us... you and me,
All I get is my pain thrown back in my face,
And end up with tears for all to see,
I'm not giving up,
Yes I'm insane,
But I'm staying with you,
As I am partly to blame,
I smothered you too much,
I made you lose interest and all,
I took focus away from your friends and family,
Maybe I'm the reason for our downfall,
Maybe you'll be better off without me,
Finding someone who can understand you,
Cause obviously I'm not right for you,
So maybe that's what I should do?
If I gave you time apart...
Would that make love grow stronger in your heart?
If I turned into a drug taking fool...
Would that make me feel like less of a tool?
If I stopped being myself and acted more like that girl...
Would you again make me part of your world?
The truth is I don't think you would,
I think you'd just treat me the same way you do,
Lifting me up then dropping me down,
Nothing I do will ever be good enough for you!!!
