Eyes of a teenager

Everyday passes,
reminding me of lessons to be learned.
opportunities pass me by,
showing me things to be earned.

i don't know life as an adult sees it,
only as a child and teen.
i can guess only what life is meant to be,
based on what I've seen.

today i learned love,
and the pain it may bear.
you can never know the persons truth,
behind the masks they wear.

i do not know the meaning of love,
or why its never true.
i am unsure of so many things these days,
i know less than i thought i knew.

i find its getting difficult,
to figure out good from bad.
and although it sounds weird,
i am a child misunderstood.

i need to move on because the past hurts,
move to heaven from this hell.
i need to stand up for others,
and to myself as well.

i don't know how to tell,
a good friend from bad.
we talk behind each others backs,
ruining the trust we had.

when i stare into the mirror,
i see things i wish i could deny.
a fear of judgment and confrontation,
i can no longer look myself in the eye.

if everybody has to go,
through torment and pain.
if they understand the hurt,
that is another's gain.

if they can feel,
the burden of their fears.
and know the cost,
of showing their tears.

if they know how it feels,
to have a lover or friend.
stab their backs with knives,
why are they so cruel to say,
these are the best years of my life!