Let Myself Go

People just don’t get it
How can I make them understand?
How can I explain to those I love dear?
That my life isn't going quit as planned

See, I'm the average girl
But not seen “that way”
I mean I seem so very happy
And I purposely appear like that everyday

I bury myself in school work
To try and hide the pain
Hopefully, If I do so
No one will be able to tell that I'm really going insane.

I try to fit in
But feel as if I never do
I feel all alone
Although everyone else says this isn’t true
Most people don’t like me
And that’s fine with me
I don’t care Im not well liked I just want them to let me be

Everyday I get
Weird stares and unpleasant faces
And I'm looking for a place to hide
I’ve already checked so many places

I feel this way every morning
I cry myself to sleep each night
I pray to God in hopes that he
Will make everything alright.

Does anyone really care?
Anyone at all...
And if I were to,
Would anyone catch me on my way to fall?

I try so hard to hide it
I don’t want it to show
But on my life I'm ready to give up I want to let myself go