The Heartbreak of Two:Blood falling from the sky

I'm gonna run to the ends of the earth
to find you and make you see
everything that I am worth
every silent plea

I miss you so much already
I can barely go to sleep at night
trying to keep my heart steady
silently hoping to see the bright light

in a couple months this will all be over and done with
or it may just start all over again
this never ending myth

i don't know why i like you
to the depths of the sea
my feelings so tough, so hard to pursue
so hard to break free

there was never any love in my life
it was so painful to feel
that's why i resorted to the knife
it seemed so ideal

yet as i fell deeper
i realized i needed you more than ever
i can't believe it, why? I'm such a keeper
but you wouldn't give me one single chance, no not ever

lots of guys wanted me
but they didn't truly know who I was
the reality that was truly me and I'm sure you would agree
because....

all this time I've only wanted you
not your best friend as you may think
he never really knew
as he gave me that wink

i don't want him to know
to hurt him that way
but maybe i do might want you though...
as I think of this every day

to take the one that's wanted me all along
or go for the one that I've wanted all along
but maybe I'm wrong

my heart is divided in half
to choices pulling me apart
they all sit there and laugh
you don't see my bleeding heart

why can't i just have both?
but i know that is untrue in my mind
this is my growth
or i shall be left behind

Do i truly want you forever and for always
even though i pretend i don't?
i walk down the two hallways
even though in the end i know i wont

can't choose until i get help
which one deserves me more?
i gotta break free and soar

high above this world
and gradually forget all about you two
everything so twirled
everything left askew

in my heart
i love you both
even though we need to be apart
I'll take my oath

never to love again