Heart so heavy with blackened blood
My soul is drowning in depressions flood
No one there to take my hand
And take to some place where I can stand
Feeling so helpless
Crying every night
Holding on so tightly to nothing
So it’s not worth the fight
Slipping faster
Into a world with no light
To help guide the way
Instead all there is
Is darkness
And knifes to help take the pain away
So loudly I scream
A shrill sound of fear
But no one comes to my aid
For I’m the only one
That can hear
I fear of going to sleep
And waking up again
Only to come to reality
That the real nightmare
Will begin
I try to ease my pain
So I grab the kitchen knife
Praying to this god
That some how he can end my life
I slash my wrist
I make two scars
One for all the lying
And the other for everything that’s been hard
I make another mark
To make my death final
I’ll lay on the kitchen floor
When you find me I’ll have on a smile
Smiling that I’m free
From all anguish
All the lies that have been said
Free from all the pain
That my wrist
Stain red
Free from all tears that I’ve cried
Free finally to give up……….
After all the pointless tries
