Black Mascara

As I sit here
Black mascara runs down my face
I try to escape everything through faith
I’m tired and I’m scared
I’m starving for affection that isn’t there
I raise my hand to you as a sign
My alter-ego and bliss it’s true divine
I’ll remember the nights
Getting drunk, being loved
Wasting the day
I brought the smile
You brought the alcohol
We sat and talked and danced like fireflies
All arranged there, we forgot all the lies
Promise me things I know are not true
Tell me things only I can here from you
We sat there crippled in each other’s thoughts
I loved it there, God I loved it there
We both laughed and cried
Black mascara running down our eyes
You talked about your future
I talked about mine
How we promise things so much and only look for time
Your family is gone
In a since also is mine
Take me from the awful place
We both would ask of each other
Scared to move, scared to speak
Scared to be with any others
It stays there when your smiling
It doesn’t ever smudge
It leaves you when you leave yourself
Dripping off your cheeks with love
Trust we have, trust we keep
We’re tied by the eyes
Black mascara we both weep