My Baby

My arms are covered with scabs
my skirt is covered with blood
my eyes are red and puffy
from crying a thousand floods

my stomach is getting bigger
but the pain is getting worse
i wish i never met you
i wish life could just reverse

my legs and shoulders
are colored black and blue
I'm hiding in the corner
and crying over you

you were supposed to be
the best boyfriend of all
you were supposed to be
there to help me stand up tall

but one morning i felt real sick
i did a pregnancy test
it came back positive
and we had a new guest

i tried to keep it a secret
but you asked me how i felt
you asked me why i threw up in the mornings
and why i was always sweating, as if i was to melt

i sat real close to you
and took a deep breath in
"I'm pregnant!" i said with a smile
but you looked at me as if i caused a sin

the very next morning,
i woke up alone
you had left me
i tried calling you on your phone

"i don't want the baby,
i don't love you anymore
the baby is a bastard
and the mother is a w.h.o.r.e"

you hung up
i began to cry
i can't believe you left like that
tears filled my eyes

i turned on the bath
and watched the water flow
i turned it off, got undressed
and felt like i needed to let go

i grabbed the nearest razor
and carved these words into my flesh
"I AM UNLOVED"
as the blood mixed with the water, i soon began to feel refreshed

i stared at my tummy
thinking of what to do
i began to love my baby
but because of it, i lost you

i decided to keep it,
dialed your number and called you
"I'm keeping it" i said
you were stunned and couldn't believe it was true

we went our separate ways
from that day on
later i went to the doctors
and found out i had a son

but one horrible night,
that night changed my life
my life was ruined, it was hell
it made me go back to the knife

you came over, while i was asleep
and locked the bedroom door
you woke me up, pushed me down
and threw me on the floor

you kicked my stomach
and i began to bleed
then you held my throat
i couldn't even breathe

my mum heard the commotion
and struggled to open the door
you left through the window
my baby was no more

she took me to the hospital
were i gave birth
to my dead, darling son
who i had to bury in the earth

the police took you away
for killing my son
i couldn't believe you did this
i thought you were the one

so now i keep on crying
each and every day
and the son that i lost
made me this way