My Best Friend

I loved you at your darkest
Did you love me at my lowest?
When I thought my only friend
Was that bottle of pills
I tried to kill myself that night
And although I am still here
All of me did not survive
I lost my best friend

The part of me that gave genuine smiles
The one that tried in school
The part that cared what people thought
The part of me that told jokes
The one that had the perfect smile
The part people thought was beautiful
She died that night
In that hospital bed

The pills did their job
They started her decay in my body
And she was beaten more and more
With every tear I shed
Seeing Zac in the room two doors away
Pushed her close to her last breath
But watching the tears slide down my parents cheeks
Gave that girl the killing blow

I’m just a shell now
A black heart inside a human statue
Eyes looking into the void
I’m just a girl covered in scars
Half of what I used to be
Only have half of what I used to know
I tried to kill myself that night
I can’t say I succeeded because I’m still here
But I killed my best friend