Tied down

If I ran away, would I be free?
or would there just be more things pulling down on me?
if I killed myself, would I rise up to the sky?
would I finally know the answers to all my questions why?
if I cut myself so deep again that I worry for my life
would I finally be free of this, and my need to turn to the knife?
I know the answers to these questions
and that's why I feel so trapped
life has tied me down
and even my knife doesn't cut its straps

~not my best I know, but I'll submit it anyways~