Goodbye..i wont be here any longer

Forget all this
can i throw it away
give me a reason
a reason to stay.
or tell me why
i would be missed
this life of mine
why is it like this.
all these thoughts
i keep in my head
i don't tell my parents
i want to be dead.
i don't say that
to my friends
it would hurt them
I'll just pretend.
imagine the look
upon their face
when they see me
their disgrace.
pressure from my dad
about my exams
haven't you seen
the cuts on my hands.
why should i lie
and say I'm good
but thats what I'd do
i just know i would.
i don't want to bring down
my friends when they're alright
or argue with parents
and always fight,
i think about going
and ending this life,
I'm not gonna lie
i have a knife.
and if i decide
and don't change my mind
forget about things
and leave them behind
cus I'm being pushed
pushed over the line
look at me
do i look fine?.
if only you could see me
see the look on my face
the one that was happy
and so full of grace.
i don't eat alot
and I've gone off food
my parents said I'm not depressed
I'm just in a mood.
maybe I'll tell someone
how i feel each day
thats about it
there's nothing more to say,
so if you don't hear off me
you know where I'll be,
dead and numb inside
this will be my second,
my last attempt of suicide.

i don't even think I'll be missed...
maybe if I'm here tomorrow, I'll still feel like this,I'll still go school and get bullied,and I'll still hate myself,more than i already do.