Hurting Beyong Realizing It

As i peer harder into the day, i see i am once more alone

after all that i have felt for you, after all the affection i have shown

we can no longer be together, we must no longer have what we had

but my emotions are confused, i feel upset, yet happy, but very sad

I'm upset that it had to come to this end

i am happy though that we are still friends

but i am very sad, so very very sad, of what we had

i feel so bad, i no longer feel so glad, but don't worry, I'm not mad

tears flood my pillow at night, when i think of our past

i cry myself to sleep, as my eyes begin to close at last

i dream of our once happiness, the smiles we would share

but just because we are no longer together doesn't mean i no longer care

i will always care for you, no matter how our future will go

but for now i cant let it be seen, my feelings for you, i cant show

i lock myself up, to protect my broken heart

wishing that what we had never ended from when we had start