I pretend.

I pretend that this isn't hurting me,
i pretend that i don't care,
i pretend that my hearts not hurting
i pretend i don't wish you were here with me,
i pretend i don't need you by my side,
telling me that you care,
i pretend i don't need a best friend to tell me that its OK for my heart to break,
that they'll help it mend,
i pretend these aren't important,
but i need you more than ever now,
now that the razor is on my wrist,
now that i swallowed 37 tablets and i'm about to take the 38th,
i pretend that this doesn't hurt,
its a shame you don't realise that
i need you
i love you
i care about you,
i just wish you felt the same.