A Man That Don't Exist

I looked all my life for a man
To love me when I’m a mess
Not for my beauty or reflection
Or just simply the way I dress
Who will hold me when I cry
And wipe away all my tears
To stand by me in rain or shine
And fight against all my fears
I need a guy who I can run to
When my eyes are bulging red
From lying up all night crying
Because I couldn’t go to bed
One who’d say things to me
And mean what he would say
I need a man who’d love me
And just chase my scars away
I been with many types of guys
But just none of them were right
Two months and that was the end
It would be finished with a fight
I want a man that I can talk to
As make-up runs down my face
When I'm in his arms I feel loved
Belonging into his special place
One just to say I am beautiful
If I woke up on my worst day
And cuddles me inside his heart
Where in his arms I’d melt away
I need a guy to make me special
Not used like a temporary toy
Please tell me if there is anyone
Who is not another outgrown boy
One to run fingers through my hair
And then leave me with a kiss
All my life I have been searching
For a man I know does not exist

Sorry this is dumb, probably doesn't even belong here...But it is my emotions.