Sister Darling

Looking at that blade,
Same feeling, same place.
All due to her,
And that look on her face.

I know she hates me,
She wants me gone,
But still, I've not been back,
For all that long.

Holding it in my hand,
Feeling the cold metal,
Itching to do it so bad,
Like when your stung by a nettle.

I can't go on,
Crying day in and day out,
It makes me want to die,
When she starts to shout.

My sister,
The most important person to me,
Says she wants me gone,
She wants me to leave.

I come back,
Just for my sister,
I wonder now,
How could i miss her.

I promised myself,
It would never happen again,
But i have to do it,
I must take away the pain.

Lightly running it,
Across my skin, so soft,
She treats me like shit,
As if i eat out of trough.

Wanting to press down,
Just that little bit harder,
I sit there wondering,
Is suicide murder?

I don't want to go on,
I hope a little cut will be fine,
I said I'd rid of all these knives,
But this one's mine.

I just want to see and feel,
All the pain flowing,
To have that feeling,
When you feel all knowing.

The time had come,
I will do it,
Rid her of me,
It's just like a hit.

So much better,
Seeing the blood draining away,
I can't believe it's like this,
For this she will pay.