Final Goodbye

I know how you feel about her
and the gentle way you stare
it kills me deep inside
that fact that you really care

i just want to know
what did she gives that i can't
when you wish for something
she gives but i can't grant

my heart rips and breaks
when she walks past
you smile like never before
and the smile always lasts

you know how i love you
and how we're together
so take my heart as its fragile
fragile and light like a feather

everyday i wake up with
reality right in my face
"i can never make you happy"
my soul covers with disgrace

every night i cry out my tears
and cut myself and watch it bleed
i watch as my blood and tears mix
for your love is what i need

everyday suicide keeps getting stronger
and i just want to die
i just want to grab that knife
and say my final goodbye

but all my friends say to me
"he's not worth it"
but they don't feel the pain i do
and the suicide that i need to commit

but tonight its going to happen
tonight I'm going to die
because my heart is broken
and this is my final goodbye