This pain hurts more
with every step I make
every hit I take
every time I fake a smile
every time I Wished I wasn't here
There’s no drug
to cure my pain
for the angst in my heart
for every lie I've told
for every tear I've made you cry
I'm tired of making people happy
when It makes me so sad
tired of crying over this life
that I've screwed up so much
can't help myself
so I help you
Sorry for the way I am
full of half felt apologies
wanted this to be over soon
wanted to be so different
wanted to mean what ever I say
I never wanted you to see my lies
the secrets I keep stored away
all the times I hurt myself
all I could ever do was cause pain
all I could ever do was wish it to go away
I'm tired of making people happy
when It makes me so sad
tired of crying over this life
that I've screwed up so much
can't help myself
so I help you
I'm tired of bringing me down
can't keep being something I'm not
can't make you happy
without crying the next day
can't be selfish
but can't keep living
so I keep lying
as I'm falling deeper
as all I do Is fail
