Pretend I'm ok

I'm surrounded by people
yet I feel so alone
I'm in a f**ked up situation
its all cr**ped up at home
So many people care about me
but I look at their faces
and I still can't see
I've pulled myself together
my family don't get to see me down
I hide behind my false little smile
I never show my depressed frown
I hide the tears that fall from my eyes
I pretend I'm ok, I mask the sighs
Someone's got be strong for everyone else
And I am that person, I should forget myself
So I'll bury my mind all in the past
In cr**ped up relationships that didn't last
If I keep my mind on something other
Like the house, or new cars, I won't feel smothered
But I hate the responsibility of taking charge
I'm not sure I can save us
The cracks are too large
They need to shut the f**k up with their stupid ideas
Forget all the pride and face the changes that are here