Drugs and knives

Once again, strike me down
Pour acid on my heart
Make sure I always frown
Even when we part

Make the knife kiss my skin
My nails scratch at the dark
Pills, my long lost friend
And tears to leave a mark

A second life you never see
But you know exists
I see you always glow with glee
Because I'm taking hits

The only thing to make me crack
To let loose of a smile
Get some weed eat some snacks
And be alone a while

The only thing to make these cries
Stop stabbing my poor soul
Is to see my blood with my two eyes
Then something takes control

Numbers on a scale drowns me in fury
Frustration grabs the knife and goes
Back and forth in such a hurry
And nobody even knows

Alone again and giving into fear
Of being alone..forever
He says he'll always be here
But love tells truth never