Out On Paper – 15/05/2005

This poem is quite long and the two capital letters are peoples initials and I have dedicated that part to them, some have 3 verses & some have 2 Verses. So please read.

As I sit here trying to release my feelings,
Trying to relieve my heart,
And deep into my soul,
All I can think about is the little part.
E.B

The part hurts me,
It hurts me deep down inside,
I feel like crying,
Because it takes me back to the one who cried.

Tears aren’t shame,
Tears are for the ones we loved,
Tears are for the good times,
And tears are for the unloved.
C.J

I have once loved,
Never loved that much before,
I promised myself never again,
So on this level I have now closed the door.

But I can’t block out the past,
I don’t know if I still love him,
Or if it’s just that he’s my ex and were still friends,
Or it’s just the trim.

My head tells me I want you back,
But I could handle the pain,
Not ever not again,
But now you’ve made a stain.
P.B – And I still for give you!!

I wish I never met you,
You made my life a living hell,
I’ve lost family because of you,
So leave us alone and dwell.

There’s only so much I can say,
So I’ll start with get a life,
You’ve hurt so many,
So till you go I will get the knife.
N.C

You make me so worried,
Probably because I love you,
Your one of my best friends,
So please stop hurting your self and being so blue.

I have stronger feelings for you,
But you don’t know,
We’ve done something’s together,
And your the one I want to make glow.

So I wish I could say,
To you I love you,
Just to your face and mean it,
Only if I gave you another clue.
S.R – you’re the one I love the most.

I don’t know what to call you,
I do like you but I’ve known you for a while,
We hardly talk and I would like to talk more,
Only if we could get close and you give a smile.
C.C

You gave me life,
It hasn’t been such a good one,
But I thank you any way,
But when I’m happy I’m having fun.

I just wish you would both understand,
That I hurt myself,
And sometimes just hear me out,
And sometimes I would like to be by myself.
P.B & M.V – thanks for the life

At times I like you,
But then again I don’t understand you,
We are both teenagers so we’ve done most of it,
I just wish you knew too.

We would do something,
And it would all come back to me,
All those days just those silly days,
I wish we could talk just so you can see.
M.D

If you just understood,
Just how I felt,
And maybe listened,
But that’s the way it was dealt.

I do love you I hope you know,
I wish things were back to normal,
Because you were so much more lovable,
Just back to the normal.
L.R

I just want to say thanks,
Thanks for all the help,
And for all the support you’re like a brother,
Thanks for being there when I’ve had a yelp.
G.R

I want you to know that I love you,
You’re my oldest nephew,
We may not get a long
But I would do a lot for you.
M.R – I do love you

I dedicate this to a lot of people,
People that I’m close to,
Or would like to be,
I want you all to know I love you.

Dedicated to ¤ C.J, P.B, N.C, S.R, C.C, Phillip Brain & Maureen Van, M.D, L.R, G.R & M.R ¤ these people all mean something to me and some I didn’t want write their real names down.