Shame..

I can't hide how i feel for you
i can't be what im not
these thoughts keep running through my head
i can't make them stop

i wasn't supposed to feel like this
this wasn't planned for me
how could i turn out like this
why does it have to be

i don't know how im meant to feel
with her words running through my head
i am so confused right now
it would be easier if i were dead

i wish this wasn't happening
i wish it wasn't true
i wish i didn't feel this way
at least not about you

but i cannot stop it
nothing will ever be the same
so now i am forced to live with
the grief, the lies, the shame..