Still Stuck On You

I’m sorry for ever pushing you away,
For hurting you in any way.
I don’t mean to make you cry at night,
Make you feel like you shouldn't exist,
As odd as it seems, I still care for you,
And without you, my life would slowly fall to shreds.
I may not act like I love you,
But I can assure you that I do.
I just don’t want him hurting you anymore,
for I can see the damage he has caused you,
Yet he’s still the one you run to,
And never once have you let him go even though I think you should.
But if you don’t want to give up, then I’m behind you all the way,
For I too, don’t want to give up on Greg,
Even though he treats me bad some days,
I still see past that, still see that good man inside.
When I see you with other people around you,
Much like a swarm of bees,
I feel I shouldn't be around, that I shouldn't intrude.
I may not show much emotion,
But deep inside I'm hurting,
Because of all the damage I'm causing
Right now I want to cry in front of you, explain what is going on,
But something is stopping me, telling me your moving on without me,
That if I were a good friend I wouldn't bring you down.
Next year I know I won’t be around in school,
I'm spreading my wings they say and I'm learning to grow.
But even though I'll make new friends,
And I'll lose contact with the old,
I don't want to lose you,
I want to be there to share your times,
A shoulder to cry on when things get rough,
And a person to laugh with when its time to smile.
I still think of you as my best friend,
As strange as it may seem to some.
Enough of the voices in my mind telling me you're moving on,
Enough of me thinking that I’m not good enough,
Enough of keeping, hiding things from you,
Enough of faking all my smiles, saying everything is fine,
When really everything is wrong.
Now I'm going to tell you straight,
Plain and simple as,
To me you're more than a friend,
You're one of my very best friends,
I'm sorry for all the pain I've caused you,
I never intedended to give you this hurt and make you cry,
if you give me a second chance,
Let me take away the damage caused,
Let me wipe your eyes with my hand,
And I'll take away all of this pain,
Chase away those grey skies,
I'll chase away the rain.
Believe it or not,
I'm still stuck on you.

*To Millie, this is dedicated to you,
I know I\'ve hurt you and pushed you away, I\'m so sorry. I still love you so much, and you\'re the sunshine in my life. Next year will be so weird without you, I really don\'t want to lose contact with you. Love you LOTS!!*