Time and time again love has brought me down,
I thought it was suppose to lift you up,
Try and try again I do to climb back up,
I didn't realise I'd find it this hard to truly be happy,
I've honestly been to hell and back,
Alone with nobody else by my side,
I turned to face you, to cry on your shoulder,
You weren't there,
I wondered where you'd gone,
Then discovered you were again with them,
They don't like me I know they don't,
Yet you act as though it's my fault we don't see each other,
You're with them every chance you get,
Even when you made plans with me,
But how am I suppose to be around you,
When all I can feel is there annoyance of my presence,
I've been going through life alone,
A lot longer than I initially thought,
It's nigh on 9months now,
And for at least 2 of them I've been solo,
I'm stuck in this pit, with no where else to go,
I've been hurt by one of my best friends,
You weren't there, so you never noticed,
I never got a chance to tell you,
I've been stressed out about my life, I'm lost,
You weren't there, so you never knew,
You still haven't found me,
I've been crying to myself every day and night,
You weren't there, so you never saw,
I still can't stop the tears from falling,
more and more,
I've been shaking in fear of so many things,
You weren't there, so you never felt it,
I still can't contain the movement in my bones, I'm still scared,
I've been through so much struggle, fighting for us,
You weren't there, you still can't see how much I try,
I'm still searching for an antidote for our poison,
I wonder if you even notice the little things anymore,
Such as the smell of my perfume,
Or how hard I try to look perfect for you,
I wonder if you notice the look in my eyes when you walk by,
Or the expression on my face when I see you in the distance,
I wonder if you notice the many times I've clung to you with your friends,
Just so I can be around you,
I wonder if you notice the things I say to those who put us down,
How much I protect my baby,
I wonder if you notice how often I try to make time for us,
Even meaning missing out on something else,
I wonder if you notice how much faith and trust I put into you,
And how much hurt I've got due to that,
I wonder if you've seen the pain,
Even notice any slight change,
I wonder if you think its due to you,
Or if you blame me for my own misfortune,
I wonder if you realise what I've given up for us,
Just so we can stay together, to give us more of a chance to last,
You don't notice, you don't seem to care,
You don't try to contact me, you don't even pick up the phone just to call,
To see how I'm doing, to tell me you love me,
You just don't bother anymore,
I wonder if you still want us to be,
I wonder if there's still a you with me.
