Inner scars

This is a true story of me so ples rate/comment,

The other night I lost it,
My mind it finally blew,
Can't cope with all these things in life,
especially the fact that you,

Have gone and left me on my own,
Since that day I've just cried,
It feels like I've nothing there,
I'm just empty inside,

I was all alone there in the house,
The pain washed over me,
It finally overtook my mind,
Can't cope with this agony,

I took a knife and cut myself,
I didn't even think,
The pain of you eased instantly,
Then I began to drink,

My own concoction of poison,
Of alcohol and pills,
I didn't care what they were,
I wasn't after thrills,

The last thing I remember,
Was my blood there on the floor,
My body not coping with what I'd done,
It couldn't take it anymore,

I wanted to be taken away,
from a life which couldn't have you,
I had to end existence,
There was nothing more to do,

It was my friend that found me,
My parents were away,
They have no idea what happened that night,
And don't until this day,

My friend took me to hospital,
I woke up the next day,
My Stomach sore and empty,
My legs cut where I'd slay,

My eyes filled up with tears,
I don't want to be here,
I can't believe this failed,
This pain is just to sheer,

Can't cope with all life's problems,
don't want life without you,
but I didn't succeed,
So what more can I do,

I try to carry on with life,
Pretending I'm alright,
I have all of these counsellors,
but they can't put me right,

They can't make you come back to me,
Or miss you any less,
Or take away the pain in me,
I just hope for the best,

And hope one day I can move on,
And this pain will subside,
But I'll love you until my dying day,
I Know that from deep inside,

So I sit here on my own again,
In complete misery,
Thinking of you all the time,
And what we used to be,

My wounds are slowly healing now,
One day they just won't show,
But the scars on my heart will remain forever,
Thats one thing I do know