As I look back

As I look back
I see
All the friends I made
All those I left behind
I see a promising future
And a torturing past
I look back and see
All I could of done
All I could have been
I look back with a little bit of regret
Whishing I had done something more
I look back
And I realize
Just how many I have hurt
How many I took advantage of
How many I ignored
I look back with sorrow
Wishing that what happened
Was somehow different
Somehow just something more
I look back and realize that I am a year older
A little bit wiser
I am changing so fast
Yet so slow
I wish I could go back
To a time when I was truly happy
And when I look back and try to find that moment
Even though I search
Desperately try to seek out that time
No matter how far back I look
I just don’t see it
All I see is another year
Wasted away.