My Final Goodbye

I walk up my drive and through the gate
I walk up stairs and wait
Once everybody else has gone
I find the CD with my favorite song
I feel like breathing less and less
I want to get my self out of this mess
I see no reason left to live
For the hell I am in does not give
It is there every second of everyday
Theres no hope for me, so I am going away
The pain I am in has no escape
So i record a final goodbye to tape
With this done i slit my wrists with a knife
Wait for the blood to drain away with my life
My legs give in and i fall to the floor
I hear a scream as my mum walks through the door
'Oh my god, what have you done,
Help me, help me, call 911'
She lifts me onto her and begs me to stay
The last thing i feel as i slowly fade away,
The tears from her eyes dripping on me
Her crying and screaming is the last thing i see
She feel my last breath and holds my tight
"Sorry, I am so sorry i left you alone tonight"
The ambulance is here, but nothing they could do
They tell my mum, that she could not have knew
They take away my body as she sits not believing I am dead
Takes one last look around my room and sees the tape on my bed
She presses play thinking that out of here, a song will float
But is distraught to find my suicide note
"I am leaving this place and leaving now
This, my final pledge, my final vow,
Mum, even when you cant see me here
To you i promise i will always be near
Thank you for the good times we had
Before things began to get really bad
Tell my brother not to cry
And its not his fault i had to die
Please mum you have to be brave
And put a single white rose on my grave
Death was my only way out of the pain
The torturous stabbing that drove me insane
I love you all more than you could ever know
My last words to you are sorry i had to go,
I lost all the strength i had left to fight
Sorry i gave in tonight
Sorry if you don't understand why
I'm sorry, i love you, my final goodbye"