I'm the One to Blame

I hear the knocking on my window,
Scaring me half to death.
Wanting it to be you,
But I shall not hold my breath.

The nights cool summer breeze,
Haunts this hollow heart.
Whispers of the summers before,
I just wanted some time apart.

All I have now are my tears,
The ones I slowly drown in.
You are not the one to blame,
Emotional abuse is the game I win.

I thought if I turned my back,
Your foot steps would be near.
Now glancing over my shoulder,
I wish you were still here.

The amber sunsets we use to share,
Wont kiss the horizon as before.
I close it all out of my mind,
My life without you behind locked doors.

All I have now are my tears,
The ones I slowly drown in.
But you are not the one to blame,
Emotional abuse is the game I win.

I thought if I turned my back,
You'd run and grab my hand.
But when there was no warm embrace,
Cold and alone I stand.

I've heard people say,
Your biggest fear will kill you.
It's hard to accept someones love,
When you have no one to turn to.