Alone

I feel so alone in the world
Does it not show when you're around?
At night, I feel so helpless and insecure
Locked in my own prison, feeling bound

By day, I'm surrounded by my friends
With a smile on my face and having fun
But inside, I'm crying and screaming
My pain...no one understands

Sure I tell trusted friends my secrets
But they will come and go
And the family I'll have forever?
We're not so very close

Some would say I'm depressed
Misunderstood is a better term
But even I don't understand my feelings
And I never make an effort to learn

Everything is so confusing
Even the people all around me
Who knows how two-faced they are?
Or how back-stabbing they can be?

I know that the one person I could really trust
The person that leads my way
Is the person in the mirror, my reflection
Me, I can trust each and every single day

Some days are worse than others
Days when I feel as if I can't breathe
All the pressures in my life are caving in on me
I can never just breathe a sigh of relief

Tomorrow's a brand new day
Maybe it'll turn out good, even great
But right now, it doesn't feel that way
I hope being miserable all my life isn't my fate

My life should not always be like this
On the outside, so happy and care-free
But at night, tears streaming down my face
I feel that I need someone to save me...
From my heartache and misery

©® December 2004
Ciermae B.