As I open a part of my heart I have tried to keep shut for so long i feel as if i cant stop crying. He called me up last night and said that he missed me. I love him but lately i have blocked him outta my mind as much as possible because it hurts to know he was with her. Her my best friend. Her the one who told me everything about him. How could she do that? But i don't blame her for my pain or for my tears or him i blame myself. And now i haven't talked to him since last year and he calls me tonight and we are laughing like nothing happened and then he tells me he loves me. I say i love you to and i brush it off as nothing just an exchange between friends but we aren't friends we never were we went from being acquittance's to lovers and now we are just people in love one more than the other and now i am crying. because he says it again wanting me to know that it isn't a exchange at all its something so true and something so real and something so strong and pure. but i yet let the change to tell him how i feel slip away like i have done so many times before but instead i write it down for all the world to see except the one person who needs to see it.
