Not again

Here I go again
I'm pushing you away
I may not act like it
but I really want you to stay

If you choose to go
I can understand why
I'm just a nobody
who's to scared to cry

But before you go I just wanna say
thanks for your time
and I'm very very sorry
I no that without me again you'll be fine

Next time you see me cry
don't bother to care
I'm not worth it
so not a second you'll spare

If only I could explain
why I act this way
then maybe,just maybe
things wouldn't have turned out this way

*I wrote this when I thought me and my boyfriend were gonna break up*