Fading Away

Walls of white surround me.
Doctors rush by.
Nurses take my blood pressure.
Frantic.

I look down at my arms,
Needles everywhere.
I look down at my legs,
A cast surrounds one of them.

Sitting by my bed,
My mom looks at me.
Relief swept upon her
As she saw me wake.

"It's OK sweetheart.
Everything's going to be fine"
Unable to speak,
I stared at her face.

She had suddenly aged.
Sadness present in her eyes,
The sparkle, the joy: gone.
Her eyes red from crying.

"It's OK sweetie,
You had an accident
But you're fine now.
The doctor says you'll be..."

At that moment,
She broke down in tears.
Never had I seen her cry.
Startled, I looked down.

As words came back,
I spoke in a broken voice.
"What happened to my legs?"
My mother refused to look me in the eye.

"Mom, what happened to my leg?"
Yet, as I spoke those words,
I knew.

Alarmed, I tried to sit up.
Yet, the pain in my leg was so intense.
I had to lie back down.

My mom spoke in a hesitant voice.
"The guy was drunk.
That f u c k i n g bastard was drunk.
He had no idea what he was doing."

As reality settled in,
I looked up at my mom.
Panicked.
"But...dancing?!?"

"Honey, the doctor says
That you may never walk again.
I'm so sorry sweetie.
I'm so sorry.

I wish I could've been there"
Her voice trailed off.
The words echo in my head.
Never walk again?!?

I hear someone scream.
It's only then that I realize
That the scream comes from me.
A nurse rushes by my side.

She injects a liquid into the bag.
"This'll make you calm down.
It's ok.
You'll sleep peacefully."

When I regain consciousness
Doctors voices sound in my ear.
Urgently.
Nurses obey to their commands.

I hear someone whisper
"I don't think she's going to make it"*
I try to fight consciousness,
Yet the darkness swallows me.

As I slowly fade away.
As I say goodbye to this world.
In the fading light,
I hear someone scream
"God, please, don't take her".
And then, nothing...

© Fighter

*That line is from a quote that I love.