Just when I think I am finally healing,
I am hit with that all too familiar feeling.
That overwhelming feeling of wanting to die,
I wipe away my tears as I start to cry.
It went away for a little while,
I'm sitting here trying my hardest to smile.
I'm all alone and bleeding in my hands,
My knees are too weak, I'm unable to stand.
I feel my heart breaking as I think of you,
I'm so confused and I'm hurting a lot, too.
You're beautiful, so hard for me to see,
The way I look at you, you no longer look at me.
I cry so hard when I'm alone at night,
I can no longer take this never ending fight.
My need for this will never go away,
It will haunt me until my dying day.
The razor taunting me by my side,
I must learn to forever abide.
I cannot take this thing that I need,
It can't be normal to want to see yourself bleed.
I went without it for almost two long weeks,
Because my parents found out and they think I'm a freak.
But it's not up to them to understand why,
If they find out again, I'll be saying good-bye.
But my best friend needs me, I'll let the feeling linger,
we're close like this, *crosses my fingers*.
All that matters is that I get through the day,
No matter what, I will be strong and stay.
