I tried to write a happy poem...

I tried to write a happy poem about all the love in my life
So why is it when I wrote that poem I focused on my strife
I couldn't pick words to describe a happy thought
And even when I could one word is all I caught

But my sad poems could just carry on going
Its not that I'm very unhappy just that without knowing
I've lead this happy life without talking to much about pain
So now when I open up like this, it's always the same

Sad words, numb feelings and twisting hearts
thinking of people that I was with but now am apart
Ways to cope, I explain how I feel about the knifes touch
And I write about how I mess things up so much

And now I've done it again
Tried to be happy but it's turned out the same
I cant help that these are the things that effect me
I just hope one day I'll find all the words that can explain I'm happy