Dad

You left us such a long time ago,
Yet I'm sitting here all alone,
Talking to my friends with tears running down my face.
Blaming your own children for why you left,
Telling my mum you and her could have a good life,
Just without her children.
Her children you say?
I'm "her" child, and I always thought you were my father.
You send me cards,
Write me emails,
Attempt to keep in touch,
You buy me clothes,
Give me money and mobile phones,
But I don't want your gifts,
I just want my dad to love me.
What have I done wrong?
Am I really the one to blame for you going away?
I thought that we were making progress,
Slow baby steps, but we were becoming more like a daughter and a father,
But now I know what you said,
And this hurt I'm feeling that nobody understands,
Right now I don't want to be around you,
I can't tell you how I'm feeling,
You won't have a clue to react.
So for now I'll remain in this state,
With these tears forever running down my face.