Cutting

Cutting for the sake of cutting
just to feel the pain
knowing I've nothing to lose
and nothing more to gain

inside so many feelings
that never are revealed
i hold them down inside of me
my lips remain sealed.

i wish that i could tell someone
but no one seems to care
and every time i look around
no one is ever there

i have tried to tell them time and time,
tell them how i feel.
but they never take me seriously,
to them my feelings are not real

i sit alone and cry at night
just me, myself and i
knowing nothing in life is right
no matter how hard i try

i look into the mirror
and i hate what i see.
after a while,
i start to hate me.

i hate what i've been doing
hate looking at the blade
this will become an aweful memory
one i will want to fade

i used to be so different
but something in me has changed
something that i can't control
that is making me act strange

i have done such stupid things
things that i regret
but no matter what i try
i cannot forget

its like I am having a big bad dream
one that never ends
its like I am living in a life,
and living without friends.

how could this happen to me?
could all this shit be true?
will everything turn out alright,
and will i make it through?

the answers to my questions
i may never find
but ill continue searching
searching through my mind.