Ugly Image in the Mirror

I stare into the mirror
looking at myself.
All I see is the fat me
I want to hide myself,
But I can't.
Why can't I loose a couple of pounds?
Why is it so hard?
All I have to do is stop eating.
I tell myself,
"I'm not going to eat for two days".
The two days pass,
I don't see any difference.
I want more than I can have.
All I want is to be skinny again,
like when I was younger.
I start to count down days,
How much I can go without food,
Five days pass...
I'm weak,
dizzy,
liking what I see.
I say to myself,
"Five pounds won't hurt or do much more",
I try and loose five more pounds.
I like what I see,
80 pounds,
and still going down.